Another piece of the puzzle
Sometimes information comes in to hq that is interesting in that it was previously unknown, but it doesn't really change anything. I feel this way about all the Nixon crap. Every now and then they will unearth something about the Nixon presidency and all the 60's era reporters and editors will get huge budgies about reporting that Nixon swore in the oval office, or made an insensitive off-hand comment, or something equally as boring. Who cares? He's dead. We know what he did. He admitted it. We caught him. It's not interesting anymore. The only piece of the puzzle that is still interesting is "who is deep throat". We'll find out some day. Until then ...Anyway, last week I got some info about T, the 95 pound earthquake of woman that spun my life around like a bad perm. Several months after T and I ceased aknowledging each other in public, a friend of mine got a job working under T. I had never discussed T with this person, and didn't feel like starting now. T was finished with me and probably wanted to forget I existed. I, wanting to save the hypothetical remains of my dignity and pride, generally stayed away from her and never discussed her outside of my closest friends. I didn't want any gossip getting back to her that would suggest I still gave a sh**.
Also, the way it ended was a little precarious. You see, I was the "other" man. We kept it a secret for a time, but then she confessed to her guy. He made her agree never to see or speak to me again. She agreed, but contined to see and speak and hang out with me. She even spent the night in my arms (a place she frequently found herself) and spent most nights on the phone with me until 5am. I often wondered when she made time for her "serious" boyfriend since work, friends, and myself seemed to take up 23 hours of her day.
Anyway, since we were often together, it would only be a matter of time before the guy found out about us and he did. She denied it, but a mutual friend (more loyal to the guy than to me or her) spilled the beans. In fact, he was so upset that I would pursue a female who already had a boyfriend (my thoughts on that another day) that he invented a story about how T and I were sleeping together. This was actually technically true, in that we fell asleep with one another often. But there never was anything resembling sex. Hand holding, embracing, kisses on the cheek, ...nothing else. This is the story that made her boyfriend freak out. She had to cut it off with me. At this point I think she would have "looked bad" if she would have left him for me. It would be like aknowledging she did something wrong (btw, she denied everything to him, denied ever coming to my house, seeing me, calling me, etc). So, she chose to stay with him.
The rest of the story will be written someday (see side panel), but this is where we flash ahead to last week.
That friend of mine who got a job working under T. In her interview (mind you, this is 6-7 months after we stopped talking), T physically pulls her aside and says "I'm not sure what you've heard, but there's some rumors that **** and I slept together and that's bullsh**. I just wanted you to know that."
So, apparently the rumors are still floating around, ...long after what was there was dead. I wonder if she mentioned this because she suspects me of starting the rumor in order to break up her relationship? She probably does. In fact, I'm sure her little speach to my friend is one she's often delivered. She wants to keep up the front that she has been maligned, she has been wronged, and that all the blame resides with me. I actually wish that were true (in a way), but it isn't.
None of this changes anything, but it is interesting.
To me.
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